The Lineage of Healing
“It starts and end with you-will you awaken or will you choose to stay in your sleep?”
I wrote this on my Instagram stories on Monday, inspired by a post by Alexandra Roxo, a champion of the Divine Feminine and an adamant advocate for the voice of love.
It was this post that reminded me of my own journey to healing and in the wake of violence in my own country and the past week being one of the toughest of this year, I wanted to talk about it here on the blog because I felt it was important to highlight that no matter where you come from you can make a difference.
It all starts and ends with you if you are willing to awaken to the voice of love within.
The Journey To Awakening
I don’t know if it’s just me, but I’ve always had this sense that there was something more.
I couldn’t quite define it, but it was definitely the closest thing to God that I could come into contact with.
From a very early age I would have “conversations” with God, most of which took place in my head and sometimes were witnessed by my parents.
It may sound weird, but that’s just my spiritual mojo, I guess I’m a bit clairaudient if that’s what you call it.
I happen to just think it’s my way of being spiritual and the idea of it being a “gift” or something like that doesn’t really seem to fit for me.
It’s just how I experience the divine, and I certainly hope that doesn’t make me nuts, but if it does then whatever voice in my head, whether my own thoughts or Spirit or whatever, happens to be something really loving that always guides me back to myself.
Anyway, that’s getting a little sidetracked.
My main point is, I’ve always had a strong relationship with the divine.
I loved the idea of God, I indulged in many Christian practices to get closer to this being that my church was telling me all about, and I even described myself as "a spiritual person” to my guidance counselor, which I think freaked him out a little to say the least and was definitely my ego’s way of explaining how special I was as opposed to other children my age. *Insert eye roll here*
So that’s where I started with spirituality, but I always felt like it wasn’t enough.
I knew from an early age that I had wounds I needed to work on, things I needed to understand and the actuality of divine encounters and trusting in this idea of a God who was more powerful than I was definitely was still a struggle for me.
It was only when I began to move outside of my little box of what God meant and who God could be that I started to really deepen my trust in the divine, more specifically in the Universe, and start to actually believe the things that I thought I wasn’t let in on sitting in church, that I thought other people got and I just didn’t fully grasp.
I started trusting the Universe, working on myself and actually understanding inner work, and starting to understand my spiritual mojo and what that could mean for my spiritual life.
I got into all things mystical: oracle cards, manifestation, new books, angels, spirit guides, crystals and more. It’s been fun and that’s what has led me here.
But with my awakening that really happened most in the past year, I’ve also come full circle to understand what my life means on this planet at this time and the immense responsibility that comes with that.
I’ve had the privilege of learning from some amazing teachers and friends about what it means to be a spiritual activist, do the real inner work that has to be done and stand up for love in times where it can be challenged.
I’ve gone from feeling completely powerless at time to an inner knowing that love will prevail and that I am here for a reason, to help advance love.
It’s been a wild ride and it’s taught me so much, it still is teaching me, about life and healing, but the biggest thing that headed my awakening before I even became a mystic girl was my commitment to it.
I decided for myself that it starts and ends with me.
Any negative patterns passed down for generations, whether that be in my own family or through my soul, any negative habits I had, anything that wasn’t serving me or anyone around me stopped with me.
Anything that was serving me, questions and my willingness to be curious on my spiritual path, anything that served love over fear, started with me.
I wasn’t going to blame anyone else for the state of my life because I got to decide that.
I made a commitment to my own healing and happiness and that’s what changed it all for me.
It certainly didn’t change overnight, but it is what has kept me going on this journey this long and it is what will keep me going throughout my life down whatever path I choose to explore, however it unfolds.
It Starts With You
So this is my appeal to you today.
No matter where you are on your journey to awakening, please don’t let anyone or anything else hold you back.
It starts and ends with you.
Don’t think that just because your uncle or mother or step-sister hasn’t healed that you can’t heal.
Don’t let any negative patterns hold you back.
Don’t let anything that isn’t of service to love hold you captive and please, for the love of all things good in this world, don’t hold anyone else accountable for the state of your life.
It’s empowering of you to choose to define your life how you want it.
To take the reins and say, I am who I choose to be and my life is what I choose to make it.
It doesn’t happen overnight and it doesn’t have to improve overnight, it can happen in baby steps like not blaming the subway station for a bad day at work and taking responsibility for how you approach life, and it can look like small steps to an outsider but to you it’s called growth.
Because those small steps add up, and before you know it, you are starting to get more positive.
You’re starting to choose the things that serve you.
You’re starting to listen to the voice of love.
You’re starting to live empowered within your own reality.
This is especially important to remember in the wake of violence this past week that can leave us feeling powerless.
You have a choice to be the voice of love amidst the hate.
You can choose to be love even in fear.
You’re not powerless, you are empowered.
You get to choose who you want to be and how you want to show up, so show up with love today.
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